Saturday, May 30, 2009

take this to heart-charles leslie

all i want from you is to hold my hand, run you fingers down my arm.

''wine and cigs.''

i feel like doing something rebellious and crap.
like something that'll get me attention for all the wrong reasons.

Friday, May 29, 2009

parachute 09.

i miss this, so much. why do we all have to live so far away from eachother?

i can't wait for parachute10.


i feel lost, and replaced.
i need you and you don't even realise that i'm loosing you.

that you're loosing me.

i hate it.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

josh beech.

i'm positive it should be illegal to be that good looking, i think i'm inlove.


Monday, May 25, 2009


shine, shine tiny dancer. how wonderful you really are.
it's hard to find people that are so breathtakingly beautiful on the outside,
and even more beautiful on the inside.
caylin, i am happy i found you.
she may be a few years younger than me, but i still look up to her.
maturity far beyond her years.

my little south african, my little princess, my little angel,
my little sister.
i love you caylin, i am so happy i found you.

hello bestfriend.

samuel james jackson lock,
i miss you.

it's been to long.

Sunday, May 24, 2009


have no idea how badly i miss you.
i want to talk to you, but i can't.
you've left, and taken a piece of me with you.
i don't mind, that much.

things will never go back to last year, that's how it is and, that's how i want it.
but i still want you in my life, i still want to be friends.
guess that's sometimes to much to ask for.

tomorrow is a new day, today is the end and the beginning.
i'm letting go of that 'extra baggage' and living my life new.

i feel like listening to bright eyes and drinking too much coffee.
i miss you lauren ness. alot.
i love you alot too.

i had a fun weekend, friday night party party party.
good to see people i haven't seen in years!

lastnight, maria's leaving party/show.
i really hate saying goodbye.
then jorji and emma stayed and we spent allllll night talking.
it was nice.

sleep, yes please.

you, me, them.

when you think you know everything,
you really know nothing.

i miss someone right now.
i don't much like someone right now.
i want things to be how they were.
i like someone right now.
i want new, but i like the old.
i don't want to be one of them.
i love someone incredibly right now.

i'm drinking tea and blogging all warm in bed.
it's nice.

i don't want maria to leave, australia is far to far away.
i hate goodbyes.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

official poster.

i'm excited. official poster. movies out soon-ish too. :D

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

yes please.

snow season, yes please.
dresses, tights, boots, scarfs and beanies, yes please.
sitting by the fire with a cup of tea, yes plase.
blogging, myspace and facebook, yeas please.
bubble baths and reading, yes please.
rainy days and golden leaves, yes please
frosty grass early in the morning, yes please.
pink cup cakes with jerusha, yes please.
writing songs at 11pm, yes please.

i love winter.
and i love this time of the year.


you're a dick.
we can't even talk now.

i hope you're happy and well.

i miss you.

Saturday, May 16, 2009


"Some people show off their beauty because they want the world to see it.
Others try to hide their beauty because they want the world to see something else."

Friday, May 15, 2009


i'm beginning to trust again.
i'm beginning to love with my whole heart.
i'm beginning to appreciate things more.
i'm letting the wounds heal and the pain to dissolve.

i'm not going to live my life in someones shadow or in the past.
i am me.

my past may not be the best, but my future will be.
i'm taking a step of faith.
living my life not knowing what will happen, and not worrying about what may happen.

i drew little hearts everywhere today.
red, black, pink and blue. (:

i drew one on my left hand, in a way, it reminds me to love myself, and love others.

you need to love yourself, before you can love anyone else.

a lot of things have been really tough lately, but today i decided it's going to be, okay.

everything will be okay.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

art feeds.


i want my own edward, not the edward.

''Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.''
Edward Cullen.


i'm ready to leave this place.

i'm ready to move on and leave everything behind.
i want to drive, far far away. no idea where.
but somewhere that's not here.

i want to be somewhere where everything is different.
everything is to much the same here.
conformity, i don't like it.

i'm home from school again today, my attendance is going down and i'm probs falling behind hard out. just means i'll have to work harder.

i'm looking forward to friday, it's going to be heaps of fun.
(: and i get more money tonight so i'm stoked.

i'm getting addicted to blogging, uh-oh.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009


it's weird when you've known someone for years and years.
and one night, just one simple night, makes you see them differently and your whole perception of them changes into something you never thought possible.

yup. weird.


hannah just left,
we made AMAZING cup cakes.

nom nom nom.

and i just remembered, i have home work.
i should be doing it now, but no.

photography written work is gay, it's due tomorrow.
6credits anyone?

my foot hurts.

i'm happy though.

ps, sam lock. welcome to the dark side.

jibber jabber.

i realised i stuff up alot, and i need to learn to keep my mouth shut at times.
i'm only human.

i found the prettiest ball dress the other day,
lets hope me going to elim college ball works out.
i want the dress so bad aha.
it's sexy.

hannah's coming over soon, we're going to make cup cakes.
i'm excited. i've missed her.

thank god for acc.
last year, fell in a hole (hahaha) and ruiuned my ankle, leg and foot.
as soon as it gets better i slip over and do it again.
now i need a MRI scan, maybe surgery and alot of physio.

one MRI scan cost like, $1,500. if i wasn't covered by acc i would be highly in debt and very poor.

oh the joys and costs of being a cluts.

it's may, so it's new zealand music month.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


i ordered skins season one on dvd not to long ago, and it'll be here in a few days now hopefully.
i'm so excited!

sid when ever i want to watch him, yes please! (:

season two of skins on dvd soon too, and then season three. weeeeeeeeeeee.

let go.

please, it's not only killing you.
it's also killing me.

it may be the hard thing to do,
but it's the best thing.

Saturday, May 9, 2009


it's 6pm on a saturday night.
i'm in bed.

lastnight was so so so much fun.
i needed a night out.
i am actually, so impressed and stoked on lastnight.
i'm a party animal!

-in a wherehouse/appartment/house thing in the industrial area of the mount.
-a super massive strobe.
-a dj!
-part suplies.
-good people and good fun.
i can't remeber having that much fun in so so so so sooo long.
i danced for hours!

then i slipped over and re-did my ankle.
so i'm back on my crutches.

but it was worth it.

i had NO sleep.
up till after 3am talking and continuing the party at the boys flat!
and i woke up at like, 7am.
and hopped to cay and jumped on her (:

happy 18th Tony, happy 19th Zac.
best party ever!

Friday, May 8, 2009


this weekend is going to be fuuuuuuuuuun.

tonight, going to a rave! and then sleeping somewhere, emma's i hope.
tomorrow, sleep and drink tea in bed and read lots.
sunday, church and coffee date.

i'm glad this weeks over.
it's been crazy full on.

auckland again in three weeks, i can't wait.
road trip and then a show.
and we're going to find a fan in auckland!
i'm excited and can't really wait. (:

i'm glad school's over for the week.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


i'm excited knowing oneday i'll find my own someone like this (:
kinda can't wait really.

Sunday, May 3, 2009


i love you.
she is the worlds best friend.
and she's mine! (:
isn't she beautiful?