sorry blogspot, i'm cheating on yo' ass. i got tumblr. 

www.ohhellosammy.tumblr.com

pretty sure i now have the worlds prettiest foot.

ffffffff off with your negativity!

man, i'm so sick and tired of peoples negative shit. seriously, i know shit can be hard. trust me, i know. it's one reason i keep my blog and a journal. but, facebook? really? i don't give a shit. i know it's rude, but when i'm upset i don't want the whole world knowing... i don't mind vom all over my blog for attention (i'm pretty sure no one reads it anyway, haha) i mind vom on my blog to get it out. if i wanted to be an attention seeking twat, i'd bitch and moan over facebook like a 15yr old. but seriously, i'm 18 and i know it's stupid. everyone needs to grow up and get over the little things. life's way to short to worry about the little things. i'm  sick of people complaining about so much tiny shit as if it's the end of the world. i've seriously been to hell and back, yet i don't bitch and moan for everyone to see. grow up, please and thankyou.

liz 'fg' said it perfectly when she said "your frush is pretty much a sticky substance that lingers and there's no pill or cream to fix it." 

but, i think it's probs worse when they use the b word, yup best friend. having a crush on a best friend... oh get worse. do you have any idea how much of an awkward situation it is?! it's an unavoidable situation though. you spend time together, you get to know each other and you get to know secrets and obviously, spending so much time together, it's bound to happen. you start crushing. 

do you have any idea how awkward it is when you know you're crushing and you're starting to get the idea he's crushing too?! ffffffff. talk about mind fuck. there's already a super tight bond there, and he starts being cute and flirty... yeah, that's something new. well, not completely new. he's a flirty boy, just not usually with you. untill recently. you hang out more, he asks you to "please come to beer pong tonight". you go, he randomly puts his arm around you (not like the bffl arm over the shoulder, that ugly thing cute couples do that make you wanna vom all over yourself), kisses your forhead goodbye. then, you go out to a party together, he randomly holds your hand, and... dun dun dun, he ends up kissing you. 

yeah, i'm in this situation... and, now that the friend zone slash possible more than friend zone is being all blurred and mixed up, my head is even more mixed up. good one, sammy. pretty sure it can't get more awkward now. and, i'm all like "weeeh do i give it a go, or nah." and "wait, omg i i did not just pash him." and, "fuck this better not ruin the friendship." because, obviously it's easier when you "frush" secretly and just stay bffls.

and, in other news check out liz's blog

http://ayeshesays.blogspot.com/

it's uncomfortable how much i would like to kiss you.

i can't figure out if it's a good thing or not how close we're becoming...

i wish i was better at taking photos of myself, hahaha.

i gave him a go and i instantly regret it. as soon as i said yes, he started being a total cunt. not just to me, but to my friends. kicked his ass to the curb straight away. but, kinda made me realize... i'm over being single, and lonely and shit. like, i know i always go on about how much i hate relationships and stuff. but, i also hate being alone. it's well, lonely. and, i'm over it. i'm also over one night stands. 

i want something real.

i want to feel something for once...