i could get used to falling asleep with you.

this video was on tv! wooooo!

this party was also probs my favourite part of the entire jazz fest too.

i just found out my great grandmother passed away on sunday. i can't help but feel so guilty that i never kept in contact with her once i became old enough to distance myself from anyone, or anything to do with my father and his side of the family. i've been asked to speak at her funeral, and i have no idea what to say... i hardly even remember her. all i remember is going to her house when i was a lot younger, and every time i was there she would do baking and give me some kind of gift. now, i really wish i never distanced myself from her. 

this weekend i am lucky enough to be covering media for the tauranga jazz festival. and, wow. such an amazing experiance. click HERE to see all the footage my class, and i have filmed and edited (:

i like who i am, i may have done some stupid shit in my life but i do not regret anything. it's made me who i am, and i am content with that. i may have major insecurities and issues, but without them i would not be me. it's time i appreciate me. everyday i get stronger, and heal more. everything happens for a reason, and i'm glad i have been through all the bull shit that i have been through. i have secrets and stories about my life that people will never know, a lady told me the other day that i have sad eyes, but at the same time they seem strong and have a hint of joy. that's me. i'm not a victim, i'm a survivour. i have the soul of a fighter, but a heart of gold. i may act a bitch, but really... i'm not. it's my guard. i am someone that the more you know, you'll be surprised and even shocked. but, from now on i shall not complain on who or what i am, because i am me. and no one else is me.

so, here's the deal. this video is my application vidoe for an internship at a local radio station called bop fm. the more likes my video gets, the higher chance i have of actually winning. the internship is paid, and my own breakfast show. it's an amazing opportunity and i reeeeeally want to win. so, if you like it and think i have what it takes please like it on this site here http://www.facebook.com/bopfm1054/posts/211433088884688

thankyou!

jimmy eat world with my bestfriend > anything and everything.

wowow. jimmy eat world amazing. jim adkins, amazing. the opening band, clap clap riot, amazing. all in all it was such an azmzing night. i'm still buzzing. i'm also somewhere in that crowd. boom.

two sleeps and i see my favourite band,

and my best friend!

i don't think anyone, but lauren, understands how excited i am for this. lauren and i have matching jimmy eat world tattoos, so you can possibly imagine how excited i am to see jimmy eat world with her. i could honestly almost pee. that excited.

story of my life.

i don't care if you look like justin bieber and have a huge penis,

you're a tool.

could everyone stop moving away, please?

i have no close friends living in the same city as me anymore, let alone the same country. i'm not the biggest fan of where i live, and now that everyone that made this place acceptable have gone it's worse. atleast as soon as i have finished studying i can be gone with this place and start my life in australia. don't get me wrong, i do love tauranga and new zealand. but, it's one of those places you can't live in for your whole life. the people here love drama and do everything and anything to create it. i can understand why everyone has left. all i can say is, autralia is going to be a wonderful place to live, and to actually start a life. but for now, tauranga it is.