i've got you under my skin.

you kinda scare the shit out of me, but in a good way.

i'm done. i'm so over caring about people who don't give a shit about me. i'm tired of putting forth 100% of an effort, and getting a tiny 10% effort in return. i'm tired of thinking things will be different, but they never change. i'm tired of giving out chances and always getting let down. i'm tired of broken promises. i'm tired of fake people. i'm tired of making someone a priority, when in reality i'm just another fucking number to them. i'm tired of shitty so called friends that are never there for me. i'm tired of how self-centerd people are. i'm tired of being hurt. i'm tired of acting strong. i'm tired of thinking someone is different, and they're the same as all the others. i'm sick of the same bullshit, over and over again. i'm tired of the contant pain, and lonelyness. i'm done.

please, please, please let me get what i want this time.

lord knows it'll be the first time.