i want freedom, and long nights.

lastnight was a huge wake up call. time to change? i think so.
i need help getting my life back on track and i can't do this alone, but i'm going to get my life back into my own hands.
i'm sorry to everyone i've hurt and disapointed, i promice i wont let you down again.

i miss you.

i hate this distance, and land mass that constantly keeps us separated.

agape.

highest and purest form of love, one that surpasses all other types of affection.

this word represents divine, unconditional, self-sacrificing, active, volitional, and thoughtful love.

1 john 4:8 says "god is love."

in the c.s lewis book, the four loves, agape is the highest level of love known to humanity.

"god is the best dad ever, and he's yours sam. and do you know what i just realised? that no father would want his daughter to be in pain and to be suffering with a broken ankle. a good father would do everything he possibly could to fix your foot. sammy, god healed you because he is your father and he loves you so much. wow."-my dear friend, micah.

"i love you, so much. always."-god.

i never want to forget what god did for me, and i never want to forget how much god loves me ever again. and i never want to forget the joy i feel right now. so, on my right foot, where my ligaments and tendon were once broken, and where veins were crushed and where there once was constant pain and discolouration, i am going to get the word agape tattooed.

yum.

oh ash, i want to be on you!

this weekend, it was amazing.
last year, i broke my ankle and doctors have just told me i need surgery and that without it i wont have a normal ankle.
oh but they were wrong. god fixed me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xRKqXRr0M4E

underoath are coming to pararchute 2010!

i can't wait!

school night sleep overs with my bestfriend, yes please.

i don't remember the last time i had such a drama filled week, or the last time i felt so empty.

i can't get my head around it. i think the worst part is... the one person i need to talk to, i cant.

my parents leave for australia on tuesday, home alone for a week. it's going to be good to have some alone time, and some time to think and evaluate the situation. everything has been so full on, a roller coaster can't even begin to explain it.

i give up.

addict & mess.